What a Gift

I have been thinking and praying a lot about this gift we're about to receive tangibly. The sermon this past weekend has only made me think about it more. I am dangerously walking on the edge of idolizing things, people, circumstances, you name it, over the Lord at any given moment. While "every good and every perfect gift is from above" (James 1:17), Jesus also said, "Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me" (Matthew 10:37).


I've been married to an amazing man for about 2 1/2 years now, and I know that I struggle with loving him more than Christ. How do I know this? Because the thought of him being taken away from me is too hard to even think about. The same goes for this little boy I haven't even met yet. Part of me feels like, "This is MY child- he belongs to me- and I deserve to be able to raise him." But I know the truth. The truth is, the Lord has given us this child (for the moment) and has entrusted him to us (for now), but he ultimately belongs to the Lord, and He has every right to decide how long we have with "our" son. That's really hard to think about, but I've been trying to think about every thing/person in my life with open hands and test my heart to see if I really treasure Christ above ALL else. I know I don't perfectly or even semi-perfectly, all of the time, or even most of the time do this. That's why I'm so thankful for God's grace. He loves us even when we love others more than Him. And WE are the ones who don't deserve to be loved! Anyway, just some random thoughts and what I've been praying about lately as we wait for this gift to arrive.